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I eventually went off for 9 Xrays, 5 of my right knee, and 4 of my hip. And yet more pain; the morphine had worn off, so we moved up to dilaudid. Then I went for a CT scan. The folks there had to move me onto their apparatus, and when I mentioned possible broken hip, three people quickly became eight. Though painful for the transition to and from, they were very aware to keep my hip from getting jostled.
Every time I came back from somewhere else, Charlotte would cheer me "Way to go Daddy!" as if I had accomplished something. It helped to keep the spirits up.
I was finally seen by the attending ER physician, who told me I might have a broken pelvis at my hip joint - acetabulum is the right word and that I might need surgery and probably a pin in my knee.
Now up until this time, I hadn't done anything I hadn't done before... I've ridden in an ambulance, had Xrays, had CT scans, had a main line and pain medication administered, but now we were going to start moving into the realm of First Times.
Of course, I didn't want any of these first times. A pin in my knee? How freaking painful would that be? Possibly need surgery? How about we avoid that too, I've never had surgery before.
By this time the dilaudid was wearing off and I had asked for more, which meant I would go off for more hip x-rays before I got pain medication. And they needed to put plates underneath my hips, and needed my hips to align, and needed me to roll over and put my hip just *this* way... All without pain medication. Woof, that really sucked.
When I got back, Becky had left to go take Charlotte to spend the night with her godparents, Uncle Scott and Aunt Ruby, who by sheer luck had just come back from working a week in NYC and even though he didn't recognize the caller id on his cell phone (Becky's number had changed when she got her new phone this year), and he gets tons of cold sales calls because of his position, he answered Becky's call.
However, the attending was there waiting for me, ready to do the thing I had feared most in the world - putting a pin in my knee. Worst thing why? I knew it would not be general anesthesia and I would be completely conscious for the entire event.
I have what I describe to people as "an aversion to my own blood, and to seeing the wounds and pain of others." I tend to empathize and expand upon what I think is happening. One July 4th when we were living in Texas, we were having a party. And we threw a really good July 4th party. Our house was in Cedar Park, north west of Austin, but also happened to be 2 blocks from where Cedar Park launched it's city firework display. So we would invite our friends and family and coworkers over. We'd start in the backyard, cooking out, and then migrate to the front yard to watch the firework display the city executed, then move back to the back yard to watch as the neighborhood then out did the City's fireworks display, because in Texas, you can buy anything but M80s and quarter sticks, but only two weeks before July 4th, and two weeks before New Years Eve.
I had a stack of really good frozen burgers (at the quantity of people we had over, we didn't have the space to make Becky's onion soup mix burgers) that I was putting on the grill, in addition to the hot dogs and baked beans we were also doing. The burger flipper we procured from Home Depot came with a really nice serrated edge, in case you needed to cut something while it was on the grill, but it also worked well for getting frozen burgers apart. Until that frozen burger becomes your thumb.
So yea, I sliced a really nice gash into my left thumb (scar still there if you want to see it), and as I tried to do clean it in our bathroom, I almost fainted. Scott had to doctor it for me, less I really faint and make things worse. My friend Chris' father kept the grill going for me.
But to summarize, the nurse told me they call that a "vasovagal" response, triggered by the anticipation or imagining of pain.
So I told the attending about this. And I don't think it made much of a difference. He gave me a shot into the left side of my left, which wasn't bad UNTIL THE NEEDLE WENT INTO MY BONE! And then a SECOND ONE on the other side! Just the shots were as painful as my bike wreck. I prayed he was done.
Then he started drilling into my leg. Muscle and then BONE! I couldn't see what he was doing, but it smelt bad, and felt bad, and there was less pain than the shot but the disconcerting pulling and bone vibrations almost made me pass out. And again, he repeated this on the right side of my leg. So I thought:
That was the worst pain you will experience today.
Then, to just make things a little more uncomfortable than they already were, he attached a 20 lb bag of water to the pins, and then lowered that over the front end of the gurney, you know, to pull on my knee and make me hurt more... Or to pull on my knee and pull my femur away from the socket.
What he explained to me, after I got some more pain medication, was that the landing of the crash had pushed my femur up into my hip socket so hard that it pushed thru into the socket and fractured the bones in the socket, and that they needed to pull the femur out of the socket to get it back to alignment, and to save the ligaments.
He also explained to me that I would not be having surgery that night and that they would admit me overnight, because the hip specialist was coming on call saturday morning and would need to look at my xrays and ct scan to make the decision for surgery. He thought it was probable that I would have surgery, but it would wait until tomorrow.
Becky arrived a little later, and I tried to bring her up to speed. She thought the pin in my knee was cool. I just shook my head.
A tech showed up to take an Xray of my shoulder with a mobile unit. Huh? Why didn't we just use this thing earler? But because my right shoulder was becoming more and more painful, it was a good thing to make sure I didn't do something to my socket or rotator cuff.
And again the pain medication was wearing off, so what do we do? Move Pete! They took me up to my room, and with the 8 people transferring me from gurney to bed, I think I only screamed in pain for 20 seconds.
After finally getting the dilaudid in my system I was finally able to get some comfort. Nurses were in and out for the next couple of hours, asking me what my pain level was, giving me other medications, and I was able to get some dinner but was warned; no water or anything after midnight -- I guess going into surgery is akin to being a Mogwai. Around 11pm Becky went home to sleep so she could be awake and cognizant in the morning. The surgeon would come on call at 6am, so that would be the earliest that I would conceivably go in for surgery. 5 hours of sleep at home would be better than 6 hours of interrupted unconsciousness in an uncomfortable hospital couch.
I slept from about 1am to 5am, saying a prayer and thanking God for all the things in my life, and that though this had to happen, that he was on my side and had everything else lined up.
By 5am the morning ritual started -- tech checked blood pressure / temperature / blood O2 content. Nurse shift change happened around 6am. Becky's arrival in the morning brightened things up, but I was still afraid. We held hands and talked a bit, and waited. And finally, with a very parched throat, I was wheeled down to pre-op at 10am.
In pre-op it was a party. Well, at least there were more people there. Trying to distract myself from the pain, I let my ears wander, which made me a little ill -- someone there for a few bullet wounds, someone else with complications from another surgery where they had his entire intestines out. When the pre-op instructions started coming, I was quite happy to meet and talk with the anaesthetist and listen intently on what he was saying. Then the nurse came over and Becky got to sign which leg they were going to do the surgery on.
We were just a bit shocked when the surgeon showed up. Well maybe not Becky so much, but the surgeon was the same doctor that saw and set Charlotte's arm when she had her buckle fracture from falling off the playground. Among his first few sentences to us were that "Now I've seen two of your family, this is the last time I want to see you all," with a sly grin. He autographed my knee while no one else was looking, and explained in fuller detail the what he would be doing it and why it was necessary. Primarily the risk of permanent arthritis. And it would shorten the recovery time frame as well. And if I really ever wanted to get back to bike racing competitively, this truly would be the only way.
As they were getting ready to wheel me off, neither Becky nor the nurse could remember if they saw the surgeon sign my knee, which he had to be found to come back and show where he had signed.
The anaesthetist showed up to take me into the operating room, and within 20 seconds of him administering the anesthetic, I was out and off by 11am.
One of the things I feared with regards to the surgery was what would I dream about? Would there be nightmares? "Oh you won't remember anything..." and Becky again was right. It was just a short blackout between the drugs taking affect to me opening my eyes again. It felt like 30 seconds at most. But when I did wake up, it was pure unadulterated pain I was in. I think I got the words "Owwwww. I'm in a lot of pain" past my lips long enough before I blacked out again. When I woke up again, the pain was duller, but now I noticed my brain was as well.
I spent the next 30 minutes trying to figure out where the heck I was. Like a numb leg, my brain started to come back to me in bits. Eventually I realized I was in a hospital. I still wasn't sure why I was there or what I was doing. It wasn't until the nurse wheeled me up into room 816 that my life finally came back into place and I remembered much. I still couldn't concentrate for more than a few seconds, but I did realize the pin was indeed out of my leg and that I wouldn't have to endure the removal of that while I was conscious.
While I was out, Becky retrieved Charlotte from Uncle Scott and Aunt Ruby's house, and they were waiting for me. Pretty much the best thing in the world to ever happen to me was having them there.
I got taken down for a few more Xrays and a CT scan, and the Nurse eventually let me see the Xrays.
I emailed the Veloworks team to let them know we needed to get a second bike sponsor as now the majority of the team had so much titanium in us someone like Seven Cycles would be a good fit for us.
So pretty much the prognosis is as follows:
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